Therapy

I have anxiety. I get anxious when I drive, fly, eat, and watch scary movies. I have a tendency to get overly emotional about fictional situations. I self diagnosed myself with anxiety and maybe having a slight case of OCD.

I finally went to a therapist this year and he diagnosed me professionally with OCD and an acute Anxiety Disorder. Ironically, I am too anxious to take the meds he prescribed for me. Its been 4 months since I received them, I haven't taken one pill. In the session I didn't think I had much to say, but I ended up crying for two hours and telling him everything. And I mean everything! I told him how I ran away when I was 6 years old and hid under a banana plant at the end of our block, because I was too scared to cross the street. No one even knew I ran away. I actually ended up running away quite a few times and no one ever knew. Either I was really good at running away because no one noticed I was gone or I was really bad at running away because no one noticed I was gone.

No one noticing I was gone, now to me is scary. One of my biggest fears is to have someone kidnap me and hide me somewhere and no one notice that I am gone. This does happen. I watched a tv show the other day and this girl was kidnapped and kept in a box under this guy's bed for 7 years. She finally escaped. How do you come back from that? My husband assures me he would notice that I was missing. This helps a little bit.